so i guess old wounds are open. i dotn want to get back into details. i just hate being the bitch that broke his heart. because thats not who i am. but i am a coward and i did run from something that was so peoweful .. and scared the shit outta me.

and that i will ALWAYS regret. but i guess ill never ever get over it

but i do know that it doesnt dominate my life

and im so sorry to all of you that dont know what the hell im talking about. but i think this entry kept me from having another emotional breakdown ... by not letting it bottle up and surge inside of me.

*sigh* i need someone ... not neccesarialy a boy friend ... i dont even know what i want.

~chels