this thing on tv made me cry today, which never happens.

so i was watching one of those medical shows that i love so very much and there was this kid named bubba. and he was going into surgery to get this tumor removed from his pelvis. and then he was getting his colon re-routed so that his waste would drain into a bag hanging from his side.

this kid was like 10.

he looked older though, i guess it was his eyes. you knew he was 10, but he just seemed older, like he had seen more, had felt more than i could ever imagine. his body couldnt handle sedatives so he had to go striaght into the anesthesia which is a pretty scary thing i gather. and this kid was so brave. he just sat there while the doctor explained the situation, and his mother gripped his hand. and slowly you could see the fear creeping up on him. you could see it in his eyes. and he tried to hold back those tears, yanno ... to be brave, but hes just a kid. something about this kid trying so hard to be brave with obvious fear, holding his mother's hand ... and there was no happy ending. they just ended it saying this kid had a long road of recovery ahead of him.

its just not fair.