isn't it funny how someone could be more willing to go out of their way for someone they barely know rather than a close friend? for example: if someone were to ask me for something, and they werent really my friend, i would probably try to get it to them as quickly as possible. if a friend asked for something i would probably give them a hard time and/or retort "get it yourself".

maybe thats just me being a dumb bitch.

smoothies make things better.

im at a point where i dont want to trust anyone, i dont feel like i can trust anyone, i dont like my present state. i feel uncomfortable around everything that was so comfortable for so long. i feel out of place, like im on the outside looking in. like things are changing so quicly that everytime i look its completely re-arranged. where is this coming from?

maybe i just want out.

im starting to understand chris mccandless.

but nothing makes me more excited than a reunion of the fall play cast. we were so awesome, we were such a team, we were so close.

i miss the stage. i miss being part of something. i miss feeling important to someone, somewhere.