its over ... the best summer of my life is over. i knew it would come ... i just didnt think it would be so fast. and i didnt think i would be this depressed.

i mean i have so many memories. and the even sadder thing is that none of them really involved new jersey. i did nothing here. i sat on my ass and watched daytime television untill it turned into nightime television with food and bathroom breaks scattered in the midst of it all.

thats sad

and i just finished the 3 papers due tomorrow that were assigned in june.

thats sad

and like my dear friend alexandra put it "but it just will keep getting farther and farther away. like soon camp will b so long ago" and i want it to be fresh im my mind .. i want all those feelings and thoughts and memories to stay forever fresh. but soon i know theyll fade. and its depressing.

but if i look on the bright side there are only 9 more months till next summer

:) ... *sigh*

i have to keep writing it down so i dont forget it.

school tommorrow. NOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!

~chels