i woke up late ... bad start to a bad day.

2nd period around 9:00 a teacher came in to my choir class to tell us something terrible has happened. it kinda went like this:

teacher: hey class i just wanted to keep you guys updated on a tradgedy that happened today

me (thinking): what bush was found to be a crack head?

teacher: a passenger airplane has crashed into the world trade center.

me: what??? how the hell did that happen? its a big building how do you not miss that?

teacher: then another plane crashed into the other tower

me: what the ... !!! how do 2 planes do the same stupid thing?

teacher: they believe it was an act of terrorism

me: oh

i was so shocked. it was like BAM! smacked in the face. i couldnt breath. its hard to explain but i treasure new york and all that is associated with it. the twin towers were my love. i loved the slyline at night and those towers were it. they were the skyline.

then they put the tv on and we watched CNN. that was so hard. to see the gaping holes and the fire, and all those people screaming. it was so disturbing. and i just cried. right there in class. and i hate bringing attention to myself. and i hate it when people ask me if im ok when im clearly not. and then i say "ya" and then they say "are you sure?"

just leave me alone

then we watched more footage in history ... more crying ... more pity stares. STOP LOOKING AT ME! IM SAD! NEVER SEEN A SAD PERSON BEFORE!?? sheesh

i think the most depressing thing is that this was a fellow human that did this. so wrapped up in his (or her ya never know) warped mind that he actually killed thousands of peopel to make a point! why didnt he make a poster or something. ok well maybe thats not a good suggestion ... but im sure there are otherways. ans im incredibly depressed by the fact that people can kill eachother so easily.

and how the hell did those people get on those planes with weapons in the first place!?

i cant even imagine the terror those people on those planes felt. how horrible that must be. there were moms, dads, brothers and sisters, and wives and husbands, and grandparents, and children and babies

all on those planes.

and who knows .... i could have known one of them.

and now the president has bombed another country.

im not quite sre whats going on with tha tbut i think he bombed in retaliation.

woulg george bush please get his head out of his fuckin ass for 3 mins to run this damn country unlike sadam husein???

hes just a bit bomb happy if ya ask me.

ok so they killed a few hundred thousand people so well kill a few hundred thousand people and that will fix everything. sheesh.

that man is a moron

im too mad to talk about this

what is happening to us?

i may not be able to go to new york on the plane cuz of this. ok look all you terrorosts out there ... george bush wont have to worry about punishing you because ILL punish you. ive been lookig foreward to this for so long. this is a need in my llife not a want. if i gont go ill be crushed. so ill find the terrorists and hang them by their balls from a flag pole half mast in memory of the people who died. then ill procede to feeding them laxitives .. just becuse it think its funny

well maybe ill jsut want to do that

fuck

i hate being alive right now

~chels