its something about not having that fuzzy feeling that you have a person to dance with that really doesnt feel too ... um ... well ... fuzzy. i dont like sitting there watching all the people dancing and wishing i wa up there with him. but him is not a good thing for my brain right now. i finally think i have things all figured out and now its like my cranium has been put in one of those boggle things ... or maybe pop-o-matic trouble ... but thats not the point. im just super confused and thats the last thing i need. and i think the more i let this soak in my thoughts the more potent the feelings are going to be and the more painful im going to make it for myself. *sigh* i think sometimes my inner-self tries to make my life more dramatic ... to make something happen during this dreary existance. and they didnt even play 99 red balloons
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