im feeling less like a piece of shit ... i know parts of what i did was wrong, but i cant sit around and justify my feelings my whole life. he'll get over it. its not like we were in love.

and i threw all that away for him, and he hasnt called. yet another guy to break my heart. i cant believe how cynical i am about love. and im only 16. fuck it, romeo doesnt exist. and ill never be juliet.

im off to escape into a world of pretend. i love play practice. there i can be whoever i want to be. there i can change my destiny, be a pirate, rap like a fiend, and never be hated for it.