thinking about this, i dont know when he asked me out. i wonder if he knows our anniversary?

does it even matter at this point?

im trying really really hard to not care about this one. i even cared about the last one, and he was, by all accounts, a full-fledged idiot. ive come to realize that the guys i get arent drawn to me by my personality. hell, ive got a good personality, whats wrong here?

maybe (hopefully) im just reading into things. maybe im ecpecting too much. maybe its all leading up to his secret plan to ack like he doesnt care and then do something so incredibly sweet that it wont matter anymore.

i was just about to delete everything above this line. then i realized that that was me editing, censoring, hiding my feelings.

ive also come to realize that i havent eaten dinner tonight and im rather hungry.