A Letter to Myself
You definitly need to take a break, not necessarily from all the activities you have drowned yourself in (although I would recommend that you be slightly more conservative with your schedule in the future to prevent a burnout) but moreso from all the things on your mind. You think through things too much. You fear failure so much that you over analyze everything you do or even think of doing.

You'd like to think that you're a spontaneous person, heh, yeah right. Also, on that theme, you need to stop picking out the kind of person you wish you could be and just be who you naturally are. It's so tireing to be an actor 24/7 and I assure you, people love the person you are when you allow yourself to be it.

Don't dissect your life, it looks better whole.

Don't conform to the group around you. Don't cater to be the person you thikn they would enjoy. Be you and let them choose whether or not that's someone they want to care about. At least that way relationships are honest.

Don't worry that you dont talk to your friends from home everyday. They're still there, they still care. You know everything will just pick up from where you left off.

Don't sit around waiting for validation. Don't feel like you havent accomplished anything if no one has noticed. Being proud of yourself is something much more rewarding and genuine.

Be selfish. Do things for your own satisfaction. Stop letting the happiness of others take precident over your own; in the end you'll be left with the happiness you gave yourself.

Stop looking at school as another 4 years of scraping up credits and maintaining a certain GPA. If you do that you're missing the point. Start appreciating the fact that you are given a gift of knowlege millions of people are aching to obtain. Learn for the sake of learning.

Enjoy the company of new faces. Don't compare people. No two groups will ever be the same, acknowlege the different people you encounter and don't take for granted everything they will teach you.

Don't trust people so easily, but don't neglect to trust those who have earned it. Walls are not permanent, give people the tools to break them down if they're showing the desire to do so.

Keep relying on your parents' knowlege, assurance and approval. You'll miss it more than anything once that's gone. Cherish the knowlege of experience; their experience. They've lived alot longer, seen more, done more. You won't admit it but they do know more than you.

Don't always feel like you have to explain yourself. People that need you to justify everything aren't worth it.

Don't feel bad for being different. Don't strive for false individuality. If you enjoy something, enjoy it for all it's worth. Don't worry if its not unique or if it's over-done, obviously people like it for a reason, it's ok to join in.

Don't get lost in a crowd. Find ways to shine through the masses without compromising your passions.

Don't fear failure. If you want it, go for it, deal with the failure later. You'll never get what you want if you don't try for it first. There's no such thing as being defeated before even attempting something.

Admit your faults, but don't get hung up on them. Work to enhance your strengths, don't dwell on weaknesses.

Don't allow another person to constantly affect your emotions. If by this point he still makes you uncomfortable, move on, it was never ment to be. Besides, he'll be gone in 2 months.

Savor your youth, but don't be nostalgic of what you still posess. You only grow old when you acknowlege your age. Don't let age be a number, you've always hated numbers anyway.

Don't expect immediate results. Value the things you have to invest time in. Checking things off lists may be comfortable, but embrace things you cannot finish.

Find a passion but don't tell yourself that having a specific passion is what you need to be happy. Enjoy the idea of dabbling. Get a feel for everything before settling down. Don't fear commiting to something. Nothing is necessarily forever but permanence may hold great value.

Acknowlege the accomplishments of those around you. Don't be envious of others' success. Everyone needs their moment.

You can't do everything. Period.

Don't be afraid of being girly. That's what you are. Wear a skirt and enjoy it. Embrace feminity but don't be what you aren't.

Give everything at least one try. Don't discredit that which you have not experienced.

Save your money, it's not expendable. Stop losing your damn ATM card, Vinny at Commerce Bank is losing faith in your ability to responsibly keep anything in your posession.

Don't fear admitting your mistakes. When you accept them then you can learn from them.

Be proud of where you're from. Let others be proud of where they're from.

Be there for your brother. He doesnt't have to be your best friend, but he needs to know you care. Allow him to be a thirteen year old boy. He won't be as mature as you, he's five years younger - he doesn't have to be.

Stop being such a control freak.

Listen to your own advice ...

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