i look in the mirror and i see some changes. im tanner from band camp. my hair is lighter and in certain light it looks like i have streaks of blonde ... i dont know how that matters at all ...

this is beginning to scare me. while i am looking forward to college very much, im also yearning for preschool. im torn between wishing to be treated as an adult and getting more privelages but at the same time i dont want the responsibilities of being a teenager or adult.

turning 16 was by no means a turning point in my life. i dont feel older. maybe thats because ive been telling people im 16 since may.

its starting to hit. its seeping in. im going back to school tomorrow. im going back. tomorrow wont be bad at all. its a half day and we wont be doing any work. but im sure some teacher will be cute and decide homework is needed. ugh chills just ran up my spine ...

but this year i cant slack off like last year. and i know its going to be hard to just not slack off. but this is a pretty important year. and if i want to get in a good college i need to step up.

in other news ... im effin sick of hearing all this september 11th stuff. they are making it so huge. and yes i know its huge ... but please people. i think this can be done in a really simple modest and respectful way. this is full frontal tabloid "baby born with 300 heads and a cow udder" obnoxious ...

but why complain about the innevitable?